haha idk lol..
Wait u fell of tha train fo real?
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
HEY? WHATS SO AMUSIN BOUT ME FALLIN OFFTHA TRAIN =( i dont think it wuz amsuing...=P
Monday, September 27, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
Thursday, September 23, 2010
haha ur wayyy better than any bxtch cody dont know what he lost =)
Thankk you :) It seems like he doesnt. Its funny tho
Your 20 years old and fucked a 17 year old what were you thinking? I can tell you one thing he is better off with the girl hes with now. Your such a cum dumpster. Do you fuck anything that moves and has a heart beat? GO KILL YOURSELF!
Oh wow. Thats nice. Do you fuck everything that moves?
Real mature. How about you Tell Cody Prue to stop having his dumb little friends harass me. Its immature. He says he hate drama but yet again hes the one causing it. Also I haved moved on and found someone so much better. He actually knows how to treat a girl unlike him. I was just a peice of ass to him and I know i was so atleast i can admit it. Also you can tell the kid i have never talked shit about him because I have nothing bad to say about him. Its pretty funny how he use to tell me not to listen to what other people have to say or thing but yet again he cant take his own advice. This kid knows nothing about nothing. So let him talk shit to who ever he wants because it only makes me laugh.
I honestly dont care about him. I did once in my life time and will never again. You can call me obsessive you can call me what ever you want honey but like i said i really dont care. This is all a simple game and can be ended like anyother game. So How bout this, Go hide and i wont seek. Kbye
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Your nothing but a gross bitch who deserves to get punched in the face again. Alys so much better than you and i feel bad for cody for fucking you. He must me dramatized
Uhm right.. Yup shes so much better then me yep your right imn nothing but a gross bitch.. Howd ya know?
I feel bad for cody too. He should be dramtized .. ne thing else?
Monday, September 20, 2010
cody's gf is far from gross have you seen her? shes gorgeous and the best thing to ever happen to that kid. she makes him happy n they really care about each other unlike you n him
Okay Good for them I really honestly dont fucking care. Cody was obviously a waste of my time and im stupid for ever caring about him. So hope off my dick and legit leave me the fuck alone. Like i said i dont fucking care about cody or ariel. They both deserve each other because their both ignorant and only think of themselves. Shes going to get hurt and I hope she does. Maybe she'll learn her lesson and stop faliin in love with people istantly. It doesnt work like that. She doesnt know him at all. But w.e there stupid choices.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
So i think you should love mee... && let me ask your friend (NICLEY) to take the phone off the stolen list "/ preaseee !!!!!!!!!
She doesnt even know i gave u the phone. Shes pissed at me
Friday, September 17, 2010
cody has a gf and wants nothing to do with you.
Good for him Could careless about him and his gross girlfriend. So how about you leave me alone
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Do you and Cody Prue talk anymore?
No we dont. Its better off if we dont. I miss our friendship other than that i dont ever want to speak to the kid again. He can go off and do what ever he wants like he said what happens to him is no ones concern. So im not concerned.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Your such a disgrace. Why he dated you I dont understand. Probably just for the sex. Not like he enjoyed it. He said your lousy. You dont know how to suck dick. Oh and your loose
Im a disgrace? Why because i cared about the poor kid. Because I thought maybe i could show him i actually care. Show him that someone cares. The kid has alot of problems and needs someone to care. Sorry thought i could be that person. Thought maybe he cared about me too. Obviously not. I was played very well. He got me. Opps shit happens. Im dumb for not seeing it. Also it probably was just for sex. Wouldnt suprise me . hes 16 years old. he doesnt know what he wants. No one at that age does. Let him talk about our sex life. Its not that important ot me . Really its not. Okay im fed up with this shit. There is no need for it. I did nothing to you . Obviously you care deeply about him thats great. Tell him you care. Dont tell me. Its none of my buisness just like this isnt your. So go aways and leave me alone. Harassing someone does nothing but causes problems for the person who is harassing.
Obviously your not over him. Your obsessed with him. Your a pedophile. I feel bad for your next victim. They better watch out. As for your daughter she should be taken away from you. Actually your babys father should of thrown you downstairs .
I am not obsessed with him okay. Second of all i made a huge mistake with sleeping with him. A huge mistake. I will regret it the rest of my life. what happened wasnt suppose to. We agreed on only being friends but emotional shit took place and we ended up dating and it ended badly. Okay leave it alone. I dont want to deal with this. For you to harass me about something you dont even know isnt right. So fuck you and grow up.
Slut slut slut slut slut. Nothing but a whore who sleeps around with everyone. You should kill yourself. Dissapear. No one likes you.
Uhm excuse me? Im a w hore. Okay thanks
Cody is so much better off with Ariel . Atleast she treats him like a person and not an object. I heard you wouldnt hop off the poor kids dick. Just leave him alone and let him live his life. He hates you.
He is better off with Ariel and im happy for her.
Just hope she doesnt get hurt cause shes a pretty nice person. And for me hoping off his dick um excuse me? What went on between us is none of your concern thats personal buisness. So let him hate me thats great. I did nothing to the kid but cared about him. Obviously you have nothing better with your life than to try and destroy mine. Its not going to work. I have moved onto bigger and better things. Pathetic that you cant show your name. Or did you make a fake account so you can hide? Leave me alone about him. Whats done is done. Its over. I dont care about him anymore.
Your a slut nothing but a slut. Your greasy and your so fucking easy. Now i see why cody talks mad shit bout you. Poor kid is so embaressed to say he was with you. As for your kid i heard shes pretty retarded. He wants nothing to do with ur nasty ass so
Oh thats Great. I dont care. He said he wanted this drama to end but obviously it hasnt if hes still runnin his mouth. Let him talk shit. Hes not so great himself. He played me pretty good and i feel bad for the next girl who falls for him
Sunday, August 29, 2010
im guessing ur pretty mad at me but i jus want u to know im not trying to hurt you or make you mad. when he first texted me i didnt rly even wanna talk cuz i know u like him but we started talking n ya. it wasnt ment to hurt you im sorry
Its fine. You deserve him. Just please dont hurt him. Yes it hurts me alot because i still care and like him alot. He was the best thing that has happened to me since my babys father and he is the only one that knows better than anyone else. But i guess im happy for you. Im sorry for any trouble i caused.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
you still have me blocked on fb i think
ill have to check. im extrmely hung over right now. Its like 730 am and i havent slept and i get to go deal with dunkins at 12
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Why do you hate ariel? What did she do to you? She still likes u she wrote about u on her tumblr blog
Really? I didnt know she had a tumblr.
I dont hate her. :(..
Monday, August 23, 2010
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
If you could eat dinner with any person, dead or alive, who would it be and where would you go?
Probably Papa Paul and The alamo like he promised :( Gosh i miss him.
hey babe ! wow i read most of your wall! Damn, why are ppl such dicks to you?! I love you with all my heart <3 your a wonderful mother && Cay appreciates EVERYTHING you do for her ! Your a wonderful friend. && a great person. im happy were friends.ily:)
Ilyy2 :)
Thank you. I love to hear im a good mother. It makes me feel appreciated haha. People are dicks to me because they have nothing better to do than shit on my life cuase theirs is no better. People are jokes. <3
Friday, August 13, 2010
why are you dating cody? isnt he a little young for you.
Why does it matter. Age is just a number. There is a 22 year difference between my parents. As long as were happy it shouldnt matter. Plus he will be 17 in a few weeks do me a favor and mind your buisness
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Monday, August 2, 2010
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Why would you want to be with someone who doesnt care about you and just wants to fuck you. I hope you know he doesnt care and is just using you
Seriously. Its my decision and its none of your buisness on how he feels about me.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
even aly thinks you're a physco whore. your poor daughter got stuck with a stupid skank for a mom
Okay thats her opinion. If she has something to say she can say it to my face. Other than that I dont care what people have to say, Everyone has an opinion and mine about you is that you pathetic
Friday, July 30, 2010
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
Thursday, July 15, 2010
is your daughter as homely and ugly as you ?
Nobody talks shit about my daughter. You got something to say say it to my face bitch
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
you have a hampster named rhyno? lol
Yes I have a hamster named rhino. I named him after the hamster from bolt
hahaha whoever the last person was has a point. i have bigger boobs than you. marc
im really tired of people shitting on me. Okay i happen to be happy with my size
Monday, July 5, 2010
If your house was on fire and you could only grab three things, what would they be?
my child, my cat and my hamster rhino
Thursday, July 1, 2010
So you and Cody are fwbs . You do realize hes young right?
Uhm interesting. I know how old he is and what we do is our buisness. Not like were doing anything so. Hes my best friend. Im friends with his littles sisters . If we were fwbs i wouldnt tell anyone so Up yours asshole
Saw you walking around with Cody Prue
Uhm okay.. Am i not aloud to walk around with him. Hes my best friend.
Monday, June 28, 2010
oh babe jus because i am wit well u kno his name, doesnt mean i love you any less. We have been dating longer then the guy n me hav, and i tell you everything. I do wanna be wit u. n dnt listen to these losers saying all dis shit. i <3 u n dnt u forget it
:) I love you too, And I wanna be with you. Im glad that were close and i never want to lose you. Youve been the best thing that has happened to me and im more than grateful to have you in my life.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
I find it hilarious how your dating a girl who happens to be dating a guy and here you are stranded with practically no one. See no one wants to be with you .
Okay. So thats my problem not yours so stop trying to butt into it. Maybe I just dont want to be with anyone. Big deal okay my gf has a bf. I dnt have one because i dnt want one right now
anthony usher tells everyone he loves them and wants to date them. ariel is nothing special lol
Oh? Fb me? so we can talk. Email me on fb
Saturday, June 26, 2010
if anthony hates ariel then why would he have begged her to be his gf? you're an idiot and you dont even talk to him anymore so shut up
yup okay. fuck you. Keep harassing me and just see the cops are watching this so they know who u r
these people need to grow the fuck up and let us live or life becasue its annoying and not funny. i am so sick of this bullshit. fuck! but i stil lurv you!
I lurvv you too baby girl. They legit need to shut the fuck up. Its our decision on what we do. Obviously were happy together and they have nothing better to do then shit on our sexuality and our relationship.
Wow. They dont realize this shit only makes us stronger. Good try people tho i give you dibs on thinking it would make us weak. Nope .
you're a slutty little bitch no wonder anthony fell in love with ariel and not you!
Yup. Okay thats funny. Anthony hates ariel. I would know because i hang out with him
just because you're both bi doesnt mean that it should be ok for your gf to be un faithful to you. if you love her like you say you do you two should be in a committed relationship not also dating other people.
Why dont you mind your own fucking buisness.Stop saying stupid shit.
Friday, June 25, 2010
THE ONLY SHIT I ATE WAS YOUR PUSSY!
Uhm okay. Do you really got to post this kind of shit on my wall?
Its wicked un needed. Leave me alone
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
does it bother you that you're gf also has a bf?
Obviously it bothers you. No it doesnt bother me. All i want is for her to be happy . Its not like were in a lesbian relationship were both bi so we like both genders. if she wants to be with a guy too she is more than welcome. Completely. She knows I love her and i always will she is my everything. Now if i chose to have a boyfriend i know she wouldnt mind it., Can you like stay out of our relationship please?
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
don't worry baby no drama here wit me i dnt do drama and to the people who bring it is out of my life with a snap of my finger! again <3. how and "be good to each other and you'll make it through anything hard and Be together for along time"
(: Im sure we will be <3 <3
Your the best thing thats happened and I love you tons lol
Ive noticed you have been distance.
Yes. Being distant is better than close to someone.
I am tired of getting hurt. Im tired of the bullshit the lies. The drama .. Im tired of people saying that they will always be here for me and their not. Just leave me alone. Im obviously not okay and when i am im sure to let people know.
Monday, June 14, 2010
Sunday, June 13, 2010
steven is fucking annoying. i cant stand him. why do u wanna chill with him?
Wow seriously who r u?
He has been a rly good friend to me . Maybe you find him annoying but who isnt annoying at times? We all have our issues and shit but his dnt bother me like they obviously bother you. Dont talk shit about him on my page. Obviously u dnt have the balls to do it to his face. So cut the fucking shit and go away. Your a hater. I dont deal with haters.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
we still on 4 2nite call me if we r 508 816 9010
sorry i havent been on . i rly hurt my talbone last night i can barely walk and crap
Friday, June 11, 2010
Big heaarts ? Tahts anonymous person needs to go jump off something . Love u
Its fine. I cried myself to sleep. I feel dumb. Ill be on yahoo.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
hey beatufuil i am gunna go to sleep! ttyt, i will let you kno if i am going to te beach or staying home!!! <3 lurv youz!!!!
Haha we think alike.
Creepy. Love you too
Wow you look like a whore. Stop hitting on people
Oh uhm. Im a whore. Thanks i guess. Im one good looking whore.
i like her, i happen to really like her so in your face biatchs!!!!!! <3
Aww (; What a great gf i have.
See no wonder im with you and not ariel. You make me smile and dont bring drama into my life.
lol naw its ok i just dont wanna b a wheel
You wont. Why would u feel like a wheel lol. You;ll be surronded by two pretty girls.
Your a fucking dyke. No one likes you.
Oh thats great. thanks. Obviously no one likes me . So obvious.
no prob babe ive always cared r we still on for sat?
Uhm i gotta c., But is it okay if possibly m friend Aly came with me?
So your a greedy little bisexual bitch
Apparently . Awsome. So what if im bisexual. I take both . More than you'll get
are you really dating aly? or is it all jus a game to you?
Yes we are dating why doe it matter to you and nothing is a game to me. Are you fucking retarded
Why so touchy bout Hontzy?
Because I am okay. No one understands what went on. Were only friends. Shit happened okay. It prob wnt happen again. we never talk .. I told him how i felt and bam it scared him off. So what alright. Obviously you people have nothing better to do than harass a poor girl who made a mistake. Leave me alone
was it that bad? Brandon Hontz is pretty chill.
Look , He is a pretty awsome person and yes i liked him okay. Bad enough i got shit for sleeping with him now you people are gunna harass me for not dating him? Please. He didnt want anything serious. I cant help that. He knows how i feel about him and he hasnt said two words to me . Shit happens. I will move on . Many fish and the fucking sea people. Just please leave me alone about him. It really bothers me. What happened has happened and i cant change it , Would i change it .. just maybe ...
Friday, May 14, 2010
Thursday, May 13, 2010
oh wow. Ypu just wow.
Okay so I cant even speak to him.
Im dead as dead gets right now. I dont even know what to say to him. I txt him to say hi and blah and i get is something wrong? UHM YAH I WONDER IS SOMETHING WRONG?
I feel like my feelings are being toyed with. I cnt even smile. all i want to do is eat and cry. eat and cry.. same shit as always. Why cant i just be happy.. I feel dead to everyone.
Im dead as dead gets right now. I dont even know what to say to him. I txt him to say hi and blah and i get is something wrong? UHM YAH I WONDER IS SOMETHING WRONG?
I feel like my feelings are being toyed with. I cnt even smile. all i want to do is eat and cry. eat and cry.. same shit as always. Why cant i just be happy.. I feel dead to everyone.
haha good times.
So I had a great time at wrok last night. Thats scary isnt it?
So I was bagging for this kid Marc. Hes cute and pretty funny lol and we were flirting.
After he clocked out i got teased the rest of the night about him. but the funny thing is i didnt mind it. Oh man we hav a cookout comming up for shaws and that should be funny. But nothings really bothering me today except for the :friend with benefits thing..m really starting to rethink about it.
Here I am 19 years old fooling around with a 17 year old. I mean im not complaining. Hes fucking amazing. But its just the fact hes still a kid . *sigh* I still dont know what to do. In a way i want to see where this goes.. but we havent rly been hanging out or talking much..
I guess shit happens huh?
Oh so I sorta pushed this girl monique away.. The funny thing is.. I dont think shes noticed that i havent been talking to her. I know she works alot and so one so forth. Not like it really bothers me that we dont hang out.. okay maybe it does.. I mean she can make time to see corey but not me. Okay that sounded jealous. Im not jealous. She just tells me she misses me and all this shit but she can make time for a guy not her best friend. . Okay so maybe today isnt a good day for me. SIGH. I guess maybe its a good thing i pushed her away.. Maybe she will notice oneday..
fuck my life.
Caylee's watching dora the explora and here i am blogging my heart out because no one is around to listen to me vent..
I wish someone cared enough to say hey its alright things will get better with time.
But no... No one is here. Im a loner. Yes a loner. I used that word. I hate it. I hate alot. Why cant i just love. Or like .. ? whats wrong with me? Isnt it so bad that I just wanted to be loved or to love someone. Lately it feels like it. I know I need to have patience but god its not working. Patiences is a virtue.. Sometimes I should take my own advice.
So the sun is shinning and it looks nice out. So why am i depressed? Seriously. I only thought people were depressed on cloudy gloomy days. Guess not..
My eyes hurt..
Ill continue later.
So I was bagging for this kid Marc. Hes cute and pretty funny lol and we were flirting.
After he clocked out i got teased the rest of the night about him. but the funny thing is i didnt mind it. Oh man we hav a cookout comming up for shaws and that should be funny. But nothings really bothering me today except for the :friend with benefits thing..m really starting to rethink about it.
Here I am 19 years old fooling around with a 17 year old. I mean im not complaining. Hes fucking amazing. But its just the fact hes still a kid . *sigh* I still dont know what to do. In a way i want to see where this goes.. but we havent rly been hanging out or talking much..
I guess shit happens huh?
Oh so I sorta pushed this girl monique away.. The funny thing is.. I dont think shes noticed that i havent been talking to her. I know she works alot and so one so forth. Not like it really bothers me that we dont hang out.. okay maybe it does.. I mean she can make time to see corey but not me. Okay that sounded jealous. Im not jealous. She just tells me she misses me and all this shit but she can make time for a guy not her best friend. . Okay so maybe today isnt a good day for me. SIGH. I guess maybe its a good thing i pushed her away.. Maybe she will notice oneday..
fuck my life.
Caylee's watching dora the explora and here i am blogging my heart out because no one is around to listen to me vent..
I wish someone cared enough to say hey its alright things will get better with time.
But no... No one is here. Im a loner. Yes a loner. I used that word. I hate it. I hate alot. Why cant i just love. Or like .. ? whats wrong with me? Isnt it so bad that I just wanted to be loved or to love someone. Lately it feels like it. I know I need to have patience but god its not working. Patiences is a virtue.. Sometimes I should take my own advice.
So the sun is shinning and it looks nice out. So why am i depressed? Seriously. I only thought people were depressed on cloudy gloomy days. Guess not..
My eyes hurt..
Ill continue later.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Bored out of my mind.
Ugh. Its a crappy day in new england. Kinda chilly. bit cloudy. Nothing out of the ordinary. The baby is napping so im blogging. Not like i have anything better to do. I could be putting make up on or straightening my hair for work. But no I dont fucking feel like doing anything. I have put myself in a depression today . I just cant find anything to make me happy. I was up all night thinking about if hes really worth it. I know we will never be together and obviously we like each other but idk..
OH LOOK THE SUN IS OUT!
My sister is right. No point in being upset. I got to look at the positives and not the negatives. This damn thing is taking me forever to write. My ex happens to be bugging the shit out of me.
God I hate him sometimes. Hes wicked selfish. He has the time and money to spend on other things but not his daughter. I have her sunday night to friday night. Not once does he come and visit during the week. Then when i ask him to buy her clothes or something.. Ya okay its a waste of my time..
Why do I even bother anymore? Maybe because I still love the mother fucker..
Maybe because he keeps telling me how much he misses me and still loves me..
I honestly dont know . I try not to bother cause it only makes me upset and makes me second guess on things.*sigh* Life is a doosy. Nothing ever gets better..
I guess i should fill you in on what really bothering me today. So there is this guy I use to like and hes a sweetheart. I really liked him and was actually starting to fall for him until i started talking to this girl that i use to like. Well this girl happened to be madly in love with the guy i liked so i pushed myself away because obviously i thought about her and what she wanted. Sometimes im retarted for doing that buti cnt help it. I never worry bout my feelings. So yes like i said i pushed myself away because i figured she was better for him. Shes alot prettier. Nicer. ..
Oh wow hold up.
My ex wants to write a check for 25 dollars a week and is willing to buy diapers and wipes.
Back to this girl. So yah.. Ive been talking to that guy again and he called me from iraq.. Yes hes in iraq. But hes comming home soon (: But i was talking to him and we may try things. Hopefully the ex and this girl wnt get in the way.
My sister told me to talk to this girl about me and this guy but im horrified i may lose her friendship and i know friends are suppose to come before guys. ......
What to do what to do. Yet im sorta afraid because what if something bad happened to him. I cant handle that..
PEOPLE HELP ME THE FUCK OUT PLEASE?!?
Advice would be nice.
God my ex is so fucking annoying. Its like i cnt cash his fucking checks. What the fuck. Hes so stupid. He knows this shit. God and now my moms being a stupid cunt. Now i see why i want to kill myself. Holy shit. i legit rather be out on the streets than this shit hole. Im always stressed out. always crying. I get yelled at for everything. My dad tells me all the time im a whore. Im not out sleeping around am i? No im with someone. My dad always threatens to hit me. My mom could legit give to shits and a flying fuck about what happens to me . Obviously she dsnt care that my father calls me nasty things infront of my daughter. No wonder why im always upset right? Yah i think so. God my life is a living hell. I need a new start. I need a new place. New people.
Someday soon hopefully. !
OH LOOK THE SUN IS OUT!
My sister is right. No point in being upset. I got to look at the positives and not the negatives. This damn thing is taking me forever to write. My ex happens to be bugging the shit out of me.
God I hate him sometimes. Hes wicked selfish. He has the time and money to spend on other things but not his daughter. I have her sunday night to friday night. Not once does he come and visit during the week. Then when i ask him to buy her clothes or something.. Ya okay its a waste of my time..
Why do I even bother anymore? Maybe because I still love the mother fucker..
Maybe because he keeps telling me how much he misses me and still loves me..
I honestly dont know . I try not to bother cause it only makes me upset and makes me second guess on things.*sigh* Life is a doosy. Nothing ever gets better..
I guess i should fill you in on what really bothering me today. So there is this guy I use to like and hes a sweetheart. I really liked him and was actually starting to fall for him until i started talking to this girl that i use to like. Well this girl happened to be madly in love with the guy i liked so i pushed myself away because obviously i thought about her and what she wanted. Sometimes im retarted for doing that buti cnt help it. I never worry bout my feelings. So yes like i said i pushed myself away because i figured she was better for him. Shes alot prettier. Nicer. ..
Oh wow hold up.
My ex wants to write a check for 25 dollars a week and is willing to buy diapers and wipes.
Back to this girl. So yah.. Ive been talking to that guy again and he called me from iraq.. Yes hes in iraq. But hes comming home soon (: But i was talking to him and we may try things. Hopefully the ex and this girl wnt get in the way.
My sister told me to talk to this girl about me and this guy but im horrified i may lose her friendship and i know friends are suppose to come before guys. ......
What to do what to do. Yet im sorta afraid because what if something bad happened to him. I cant handle that..
PEOPLE HELP ME THE FUCK OUT PLEASE?!?
Advice would be nice.
God my ex is so fucking annoying. Its like i cnt cash his fucking checks. What the fuck. Hes so stupid. He knows this shit. God and now my moms being a stupid cunt. Now i see why i want to kill myself. Holy shit. i legit rather be out on the streets than this shit hole. Im always stressed out. always crying. I get yelled at for everything. My dad tells me all the time im a whore. Im not out sleeping around am i? No im with someone. My dad always threatens to hit me. My mom could legit give to shits and a flying fuck about what happens to me . Obviously she dsnt care that my father calls me nasty things infront of my daughter. No wonder why im always upset right? Yah i think so. God my life is a living hell. I need a new start. I need a new place. New people.
Someday soon hopefully. !
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
one last post before bed.
Well I think I am off to bed for the night :(
I have alot on my mind. Still confused. A bit hurt. Not too sure on what I want or need to do. Im sure i will lay restless in my bed and not drift of to sleep like i should but its fine. Im sure i will have a chance to nap during the day.
Hopefully tomorrow is a better day and maybe I will get the answer i deserve. Atleast I do know he cares if it counts..
*sigh* What do i get myself into. Good night.
I have alot on my mind. Still confused. A bit hurt. Not too sure on what I want or need to do. Im sure i will lay restless in my bed and not drift of to sleep like i should but its fine. Im sure i will have a chance to nap during the day.
Hopefully tomorrow is a better day and maybe I will get the answer i deserve. Atleast I do know he cares if it counts..
*sigh* What do i get myself into. Good night.
uhm okay..
Okay so i decided to look up an old friend and this old friend happens to have the same last name as my friends with benefits and it hit me that their related. Like ive known her since like second grade and i just wanted to see how she was. Well i txt my friends with benefits and was like oh haha your related to so and so and he was like yes is that a good thing or bad?
I was like oh she was a good friend in school.
He was like well if you talk to her dont mention anything about us. Kinda snappyish right?
I was like of course not. Obviously i wasnt planning onto. What goes on between us stays between us. I mean not everyone has to know right? Exactly. But
I do feel sorta shityy. Am i really embarrasing?
Dont answer that I know the answer.
its not like im mad.. Just a little upset that he would think i would say something. Im not like that. Ugh.. I feel like crying.
He seems to think im mad. I tell him im not mad and he says i wasnt mad before he said that. Ive been unhappy all day. :( seriously can my life get anyworse?
I was like oh she was a good friend in school.
He was like well if you talk to her dont mention anything about us. Kinda snappyish right?
I was like of course not. Obviously i wasnt planning onto. What goes on between us stays between us. I mean not everyone has to know right? Exactly. But
I do feel sorta shityy. Am i really embarrasing?
Dont answer that I know the answer.
its not like im mad.. Just a little upset that he would think i would say something. Im not like that. Ugh.. I feel like crying.
He seems to think im mad. I tell him im not mad and he says i wasnt mad before he said that. Ive been unhappy all day. :( seriously can my life get anyworse?
Confused much ?
Yes I am back for a 3rd time today but im super confused.
So my "friends with benefits" confuses me alot. I know there was sorta weird connection between us the first night we hung out and he told me he did like me .. I mean we go off and have sex and here i am the dumbass who fell for him.
Okay Like no deeply only a little.
I guess im the fool in this story right? They say girls should have fuck buddys. Well their right. I Like him. I like him.. It sounds so weird when I say it on here. Its like a little kid thing. Sorrta like puppy love with out the love. A little kid cush but not being a little kid. I guess theres no word for it. Maybe a fling? You could call it a fling. Where not dating. We call it our own thing. :( Confusion sucks. Not like I tell him any of this because when i told him i was falling for him well.. yah not as i expected. Thats the last time i listen to my so called best friend. In a way i feel like giving up just because ppl say its a waste of time. Yes i feel its not. .
Ugh. What to do what to do. Am I an idiot for liking him? I guess you can call me an idiot for feeling this way. Feelings are dumb. I sorta kinda wonder how he feels about me. Not like I can ask him straight up.. HEY YOU DO YOU LIKE ME BACK?
We sorta accomplished we will never date. Just because I have a daughter. Hes scared im scared. Nothing new. *sigh* Im a failure.
So my "friends with benefits" confuses me alot. I know there was sorta weird connection between us the first night we hung out and he told me he did like me .. I mean we go off and have sex and here i am the dumbass who fell for him.
Okay Like no deeply only a little.
I guess im the fool in this story right? They say girls should have fuck buddys. Well their right. I Like him. I like him.. It sounds so weird when I say it on here. Its like a little kid thing. Sorrta like puppy love with out the love. A little kid cush but not being a little kid. I guess theres no word for it. Maybe a fling? You could call it a fling. Where not dating. We call it our own thing. :( Confusion sucks. Not like I tell him any of this because when i told him i was falling for him well.. yah not as i expected. Thats the last time i listen to my so called best friend. In a way i feel like giving up just because ppl say its a waste of time. Yes i feel its not. .
Ugh. What to do what to do. Am I an idiot for liking him? I guess you can call me an idiot for feeling this way. Feelings are dumb. I sorta kinda wonder how he feels about me. Not like I can ask him straight up.. HEY YOU DO YOU LIKE ME BACK?
We sorta accomplished we will never date. Just because I have a daughter. Hes scared im scared. Nothing new. *sigh* Im a failure.
I have more!
I have more to talk about!
Okay so I have been thinking alot lately about things. Like where my life is going. Whose it going to be spent with where it will be spent.
I know Its a random thought I had. In a way I feel as if I will never go anywhere. But everyone has to go somewhere right? What if we all went to the same place (: A happy place. Im rediculous.
But on the plus and positive side my sister is comming home ^_^ Finally
I know we dont always get along when were together and sometimes i wonder if we ever get sick of each other but im glad she wont be far from me.
Oh yes. . . Life is well peachy
Okay so I have been thinking alot lately about things. Like where my life is going. Whose it going to be spent with where it will be spent.
I know Its a random thought I had. In a way I feel as if I will never go anywhere. But everyone has to go somewhere right? What if we all went to the same place (: A happy place. Im rediculous.
But on the plus and positive side my sister is comming home ^_^ Finally
I know we dont always get along when were together and sometimes i wonder if we ever get sick of each other but im glad she wont be far from me.
Oh yes. . . Life is well peachy
Back again
Yes. yes.
I am back again with more to tell. Theres so many places I can begin but its hard to decide,
Well World just when I thought life was getting easier and things were going fantastic it changed in an instant. I finally got a job, I was happy where my life was at and BAM ! My dad had to kill it all.
Okay My dad is well my dad. I cant change who he is and how he is but if i could I would in a heartbeat. He always says he wants whats best. But sometimes whats best is to leave me alone and let me be who I want. But enough about the father cause I could ramble on and on about the mean stuff.
On the plus side theres a guy (: A very intriguing guy ! I am not giving out names just because I dont know who you people who rease these are and I never know who you know! Okay so about him. Well hes 17 I know a little young But hes a fanastic guy. Always makes me smile when i dont want to , He acts childish which i adore the most because im a kid myself. Hes caring . Hates when im upset.
Okay no where not dating.. i dont know if we ever will but hey i take what i can get =p. Friends with benefits if thats what you call it. Hes very sensetive which is attractive. I know you people must think im fucking retarted but I like sensetive guys. Im pretty sensetive myself.
Okay what else is going on.. Hm work Let me fill you in about work.
So yes I work at SHAWS. Its shitty pay. But I like the people i work with . Not all the time but most.
Excuse me a moment. My sister is bothering me about Tweeting on Twitter < < <
Okay sorry were discussing my future husband Justin Beiber. New color (:
Just because Black is to plain for me. I tend to talk alot dont i ? Your all like SHUT UP MADDY
and me Im all like *HYPER HYPER HYPER* The random things in life that make you wonder.
Hm what else to write about.
Oh how dumb my babys father happens to be. The last time I was here on my other profile I was with him. Well for all of you to know im not with him. There is a reason for that. He thinks parenthood is a game. Theres nothing funny about it. I love being a mom. Yes Im only 19 almost 20 but she is my life.
My resposibility. God damn it i dont even make him pay child support. I know I should but im too nice of a person. Every little bit of money i get goes to my daughter, For clothes and shoes and crap. She is the love of my life!
I would never ask for more.
I bitch alot dont I ? I wonder if you people actually read these or if i just post them for nothing.
I will be back later if anything new happens, I am a bit tired of complaining. I just wish I could get a break once in a while.
Peace (: (: <3>
I am back again with more to tell. Theres so many places I can begin but its hard to decide,
Well World just when I thought life was getting easier and things were going fantastic it changed in an instant. I finally got a job, I was happy where my life was at and BAM ! My dad had to kill it all.
Okay My dad is well my dad. I cant change who he is and how he is but if i could I would in a heartbeat. He always says he wants whats best. But sometimes whats best is to leave me alone and let me be who I want. But enough about the father cause I could ramble on and on about the mean stuff.
On the plus side theres a guy (: A very intriguing guy ! I am not giving out names just because I dont know who you people who rease these are and I never know who you know! Okay so about him. Well hes 17 I know a little young But hes a fanastic guy. Always makes me smile when i dont want to , He acts childish which i adore the most because im a kid myself. Hes caring . Hates when im upset.
Okay no where not dating.. i dont know if we ever will but hey i take what i can get =p. Friends with benefits if thats what you call it. Hes very sensetive which is attractive. I know you people must think im fucking retarted but I like sensetive guys. Im pretty sensetive myself.
Okay what else is going on.. Hm work Let me fill you in about work.
So yes I work at SHAWS. Its shitty pay. But I like the people i work with . Not all the time but most.
Excuse me a moment. My sister is bothering me about Tweeting on Twitter < < <
Okay sorry were discussing my future husband Justin Beiber. New color (:
Just because Black is to plain for me. I tend to talk alot dont i ? Your all like SHUT UP MADDY
and me Im all like *HYPER HYPER HYPER* The random things in life that make you wonder.
Hm what else to write about.
Oh how dumb my babys father happens to be. The last time I was here on my other profile I was with him. Well for all of you to know im not with him. There is a reason for that. He thinks parenthood is a game. Theres nothing funny about it. I love being a mom. Yes Im only 19 almost 20 but she is my life.
My resposibility. God damn it i dont even make him pay child support. I know I should but im too nice of a person. Every little bit of money i get goes to my daughter, For clothes and shoes and crap. She is the love of my life!
I would never ask for more.
I bitch alot dont I ? I wonder if you people actually read these or if i just post them for nothing.
I will be back later if anything new happens, I am a bit tired of complaining. I just wish I could get a break once in a while.
Peace (: (: <3>
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